Falling from grace

Standing on solid ground watching as a hole grows beneath my feet ... struggling to run ... yet frozen from the past

Slowly I felt myself fading like a shadow being cast from the rising sun

Seeing the light surround me beyond the darkness I stood within ... I stretched out my hand trying to touch to the light ... then feeling terrified as I watched that light fade away

Screaming to hear the sound of my voice ... realizing no sound came out ... trying to scream, but silence surrender my voice to darkness

Knowing I will face judgement and punishment as I have so many times before ... just for trying to save myself from the nightmare that I lived within

Openly I declared I have no more they can take from me ... I surrender ... you've won ... I am completely broken down to the depths within

Longing to understand ... how everyone just took different parts of me ... and I never even saw what was happening until all the good parts were gone

Stealing my innocence ... and destroying my dignity ... then holding both hostage wanting a payment for it's return

Falling from Grace ... abandoned and tossed away

Dark swirling thoughts now roam and reveal the fear that has overtaken my soul

Suddenly a hand appeared ... and somehow I just reacted and reached out to grab it ... but I was weaker than I realized and couldn't find the strength to hold on

Falling further into the hole ... I just closed my eyes as I waited to hit the bottom

Falling from grace ... he caught me ... using both his hands and surrounded me with love to break my fall

He saved me from those who tried to hurt me again ... holding me tight... his embrace saved me

My heart felt loved ... and even as the years go by, he still holds me close to his heart ... giving me no worries or fears of him of ever letting me go

My fall from grace ... was just another tumble to keep me believing I am not worthy

That fall from grace turned into something beautiful ... for grace greeted me when he reached out and broke my fall, saving me.